How to Start Over (When you weren't planning to...)

Here we are. It’s officially 2022. 


Somewhere between 48% and 60% of Americans have made New Year’s Resolutions to lose weight, save money, eat healthier or exercise more. They have plans. They are going to take a series of steps and move toward being a better, happier, whatever-er…them. 


They have plans and it’s awesome. 


Then there’s us. The ones who got life thrown at them from a heaping pile of chaos and confusion. We’re the ones on the not so great side of a break-up. The ones struggling to come to terms with the fact that the relationship we were (emphasis on the past tense) in, is no more. All the plans we had to…do life with that other person are as done as 2021. Like our weight losing, money saving, clean eating counterparts, we also have to start over, but without the enthusiasm or plan. Everything feels like its converging on you all at once, and it all feels huge. Overwhelming. Terrifying. 


So, how do you do it?


How do you start over, when you weren’t really planning to?

Get Selfish with...

Right. Wait. What? Yes. Get selfish. With you. Your love. Your body. Your time. Your energy. Your peace. Everything that is you, is yours. You’ve just been giving it away so freely and for so long to some undeserving individual, that you’ve forgotten that fact. Let’s look at what it means to actively get selfish (in all the best ways) with… 

Your love

You’ve been sacrificing parts of yourself for the last however long in the name of love, but chances are you’ve not been the beneficiary of that sacrifice. Decide now that it’s time for you to reap the benefits of the love you possess.  Ask yourself, what am I interested in? What do I love to do? This way you take love for a bit of a spin. Hold off on thinking of it only as something you have to offer to someone else, because in the absence of that someone else it’s going to feel terrible having love to offer, but no one to give it to. 

 

So, no more associating love with another person and therefore no longer associate it with a break-up or sitting around waiting for someone else to do (or not do) something to prove love’s existence or absence. For the next 90 days (at least) your love is exclusively for you. What does that mean? Where do you begin? Try some courses. If you’re old enough to remember when iPhones first came out, then you’ll probably remember Apple’s commercial for the App Store. The tagline was “there’s an app for that.” Well, courses are the new apps. Just about everywhere you turn there is some offering on some subject. Whether you want to learn a new hobby or embark on a new career, there’s a course for that.  Of the gazillion course platforms available, Skillshare and EdX are the best platforms for courses. Skillshare is better for the casual learner because lived experience and anecdotal information thrive on that platform. The instructors are people who do the thing they are teaching. They have skills they want to share, so yeah, hence the name. edX on the other hand is more of an academic approach to learning. The instructors are professors who have taught formal university level classes for years. There is usually some form of testing involved with these course and even an option to get a certificate. Another huge difference between the two platforms, Skillshare has costs associated with it, while edX courses are free.*

Your body

If there is a course for every subject you can think of, there are also an infinite amount of fitness apps to choose from. Since weight gain and/or weight loss (the unhealthy kind) can be directly linked to break-ups and toxic relationships, it’s wonderful to know that an app like DownDog is available. You can pick the perfect fitness style for your overall preferences or your mood that day. Everything from HIIT (High Intensity Interval Training) to Yoga, Barre and Pre-natal are available. They also have a meditation app that we will cover a bit later. The other great thing about the DownDog app, is they seem to operate like social enterprise, as they will adjust the pricing of their subscriptions (even making the app free to use) if you are experiencing financial hardships. 

 

Of course, there are many other aspects of dealing with your body during this time (i.e. your physical and/or sexual health) that you will contend with, so we’ll be taking a deeper dive into those in a future post. But for now, try to focus for the next 90 days on developing a consistent routine that requires you to be selfish with what you do with your body as far as physical activity is concerned. Start small. Then work up to having a consistent routine that not only challenges you physically, but creates discipline in your daily routine.

Your time

Realizing you were in a toxic relationship is awful. What’s worse is realizing how much time you’ve wasted. Seriously. How much time have you lost? Waiting for them to…? Questioning if what you were feeling was valid? Wondering if things would ever go back to the way they were when things were easy and fun? Doubting yourself? Being lied to? Chances are you’ve spent days, years or decades wasting your time hoping that someone’s behavior will change, when it likely, never will. Decide now that you have no more time to waste. If the COVID-19 pandemic did anything, it laid bare that time is precious. Treat it like it is. Instead of wasting hours ruminating on what they said vs. what they really meant, or where they said they were going vs. where they ended up, set a time limit on how long you can think about anyone else, who is not your dependent (and even that should have limits). Give yourself no more than 10 minutes to wonder, ponder, ruminate, or mope. That’s it. That’s all you get. For the remainder of the day you will focus on actively pursuing things that you will be proud you did tomorrow. Study for class, rest, plan your next adventure, catch up with a supportive friend, find something to laugh about but no, absolutely no wasting time thinking about someone who isn’t thinking about you. 

Your energy

Being in a toxic relationship is exhausting. It is. You’ve been spending your days running around in circles, running into lies, and outrunning the truth that you weren’t actually happy. Now you find yourself tired, all the time? No wonder. You know those courses we talked about in the beginning? That’s where your energy should go. Focus on giving yourself to the things (and people) who give back to you. Focus on the things that make you feel energized and relaxed. Are you an introvert? Spend some time in nature. Find an off the beaten path park near you and take some time to recharge. Perhaps the laid back life is not for you and you like to get out there and mix it up. Find a cool activity to that you can safely do in your free time.  

Your peace

Finding your peace (and being selfish with it) is really a culmination of everything else we have discussed up until the point. Deciding what (and who) to love, to be careful with what you do with your body, ensuring you waste as little time as possible, and choosing what to give your energy to – all of these things act as a safeguard for your peace because they create boundaries. Boundaries assure you aren’t available for everything or everyone. They keep you honoring the promises you’ve made to yourself. They help keep people who would do or wish you harm out of your daily activities, so you can focus on creating healthier habits and relationships and come out of this year, being a version of yourself you can be proud of. 

 

If you need help finding peace or being still, the mediation app on DownDog is spectacular. You can choose your favorite type of mediation that last anywhere from 5 – 30 minutes in a voice of your choosing. These mindfulness practices enhance and challenge your ability to concentrate, be still, and focus on turning your attention inward. You’re going to need all of those skills on the path to peace.

Putting it all together...

Try it. Trying being selfish…with you. Try being picky about who you spend your time with and what you spend your time on. Try learning something new or reigniting a dormant passion. Try honoring your body and being careful how you treat it and what you give it. This is self-care. Try it. You might just find that the heaping pile of chaos and confusion you’ve been thrown, isn’t so daunting after all.